Growing up and away.....

Ok, Logan and Dylan just finished their first week of HIGH SCHOOL!!! I am feeling so many different things...I am so proud of both of them. And I love them sooo much. But this week, I have really felt them growing up and away from me. I know I shouldn't feel this way. They are supposed to grow up. I want them to grow up and be strong, confident, caring young men. But a part of me misses my babies. They have defined my life for almost 15 years, and now.....I'm not sure how to explain it.....I guess I am just realizing that pretty soon they WILL be grown. They are both almost 6 ft tall already, so it feels like being with grown men. I think back to when I was in high school, and some of the insane things I did....and I want to protect them from all of that. And I know that I really can't. They will have to go through all of that themselves. I just have to pray that between my and Pop and Grandma, we have taught them the right way. And that I haven't screwed them up too bad....

The neat thing is, they are going to my old alma mater, Hardaway High School. So, I plan to take them to football games (and no, I won't make them sit with me) because that was always fun. I haven't been able to convince them to join anything yet, but maybe they will find something that interests them besides video games. Logan is taking Music Appreciation, and has already said he is enjoying it. He said he even played a little song on the piano they had. Dylan has Health this semester, but maybe he will get something better next time.

Just pray for me....that I can let them grow up gracefully, and for them....to keep them safe.